My boy's gone

[Brooke]

He sent me to the ER last night and we set him free this morning at 8am. I'll get to a proper memorial when i can type better. I still cant believe I've lost my baby. I will never get over this

[oscarforevermom]

Brooke, I'm so sorry!! :sob:

A :candle: to help Charlie cross over the Bridge. My heart aches for you and I'm crying with you... I'm so sorry!!

[Suzanne R]

I'm crying, too - I am SO sorry!! However, you will get over this - time helps, and it will get better - eventually. I am SO sorry! :hug2: :hug2: :hug2:

[kpm_tex]

Dear Brooke,
I know it certainly doesn't seem like it now but you have done the most humane thing for Charlie and your family. Please seek counseling to help you work through your grief and feelings over this. There are better days ahead.

[Schatz's Mom]

I'm so sorry Brooke. There are no words that can make this any easier for you. I have tears streaming down my face so I can only imagine what you and Mike are going through. Charlie is free from his inner demons now and is running free. :candle: for that dear dear boy.

[MomToMazzy&More]

Brooke, my heart breaks for you for all you have been through. Just know in your heart you did the best you could for Charlie. He is at peace now.:0204:

[Great90wt]

Brooke,

I'm very sorry for your loss. It probably was for the best, whatever haunted Charlies thoughts could not follow him to the Bridge. He's at peace now.

[Orchid Crazy]

Brooke, I am so sorry for your heart break. And sorry for your physical wounds as well. He is at peace now. You did the most loving thing for him that you could possibly do. Hugs going out to you and :rayz: :rayz: :rayz: for healing.

[Kari]

I'm so sorry to hear this... :( Take comfort in knowing, though, that he is now free of what has haunted him, and he will be waiting to be reunited with you at the bridge...at peace at last.

[Rue]

...sorry to hear about Charlie...but trust that you did what you felt was best...:hug:

[maddoxies]

Brooke, My heart sank when I saw your thread title. I am so sorry that it ended this way;you did your best for him and that includes setting him free of his demons this morning. He is at peace, happy and healthy, playing with our other furbabies until we can join them.

Work through the grief and pain; it takes time. Petloss is a great support group/website for that.

Our Bridge candle has been lit all week: Magic, Buster and Evie from Able Dogs and now Charlie. It has been a tough week of losses - and yes, we all feel pain with you (and the others).

:hug2:

[zoeysmom]

Helping a baby cross the Bridge is the most difficult thing I've ever done in my life. I am SO SO VERY sorry. I know your heart is broken, I know you don't believe it right now, but with time the pain will ease.

You did everything you could do for Charlie, you know that's true. We know that's true. You could NOT have done any more.

Charlie is at peace now, and you, with time, can start to remember the 99% of the time that the memories that are happy.

We're here for you. Talk to someone - professionals if necessary. Here are some links that may help when you have a chance to catch your breath. (http://www.lib.purdue.edu/vetmed/vmlpetloss.html)

I called this line (http://www.vetmed.wsu.edu/PLHL/home/index.asp) at one point. I just needed to talk to someone one day and felt like everyone else I knew was tired of my grief - so I called. They were wonderful and caring.

You were a GREAT hoomom to Charlie, someday he'll send another doggie love into your life.

[LUVMYGUNNER]

So sorry to hear this. Here are hugs :hug2: for you. You did the best for him. You were a good mom.

[Irminsul]

Brooke I am so sorry, but also relieved that it is finally over and everybody is at peace.

You did everything in your power to help Charlie. You did not fail him in any way. I hope your physical and emotional wounds will heal.

My heart goes out to you! Run free, Charlie! :hugs1:

[abiose]

Our thoughts are with you :angel7: :angel7: :angel7:
With all our love... :0204:

Ann, Christian and Lucie

[doggylover]

I'm sure you feel your heart is breaking over this. From reading all the posts about Charlie, I really feel you tried everything you possibly could do. You really went beyond what most people could handle. I hope you feel some comfort in this.

[Julian&MistyMom]

Brooke, I am so very, very sorry. My deepest condolences.

[schroeders mom]

Oh Brooke, I am so very very sorry about Charlie!! Major rayz for your very loving heart :rayz: :rayz: :rayz: and :hug2: :hug2: for you!!! May God keep you and your family - our prayers are with you :angel7: :angel7:

[Jenn]

Oh Brooke, I am so sorry to hear of this. You tried your best and just know he is running at the bridge free from the pain. I hate that it had to come to this for you but I believe that you did what was best for the both you and Charlie. You wil be in my thoughts and prayers.

[MicheleS]

Brooke, I am so very sorry that you had to lose your precious baby. It's never easy no matter what the circumstances. Charlie will take all of the love you gave him to the Bridge, but the demons will not follow him. He will be happy running and playing and meeting lots of new friends, and most of all, waiting for you.

When you feel better, it will help to heal your heart to get involved in good works, such as rescue or educating others about Petland and Puppy Mills.

A :candle: to light Charlie's journey to the Bridge.

[DachsieLover05]

My heart sank when I read the title of this thread. I can only imagine how you must feel at this moment. Please take comfort in knowing that you did all that you could do for Charlie and you set him free from his demons by helping him to the bridge. My heart breaks for you and Mike...we'll send up prayers and lots of rays :rayz: :rayz: .:bighug:

[Schatz's Mom]

A picture for those of you who never got to meet this little guy. I have spoken to Brooke and she is doing as well as can be expected. When she is ready I will help her put together a memorial for Charlie.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v691/cwharriman/Charlie.jpg

[Suzanne R]

OK, more tears. What a beautiful dog - and what a waste! Damn Petland!!! Or whatever store it was!!!

[fdcutee]

My thoughts and prayers are with you.... this must be a very hard time for you.

[Heidi's Pam]

to you Brooke as you work through the grief and I hope that in time you will come to see that Charlie is now free from the demons that rode him and that you will find some peace from the difficult decision that had to be made. Try to remember that you did all that you could for him and I hope that you will remember all the good things that he brought into your life. :bighug: :candle: :candle: being lit to show Charlie the way.

[yolanda]

Dear Brooke,

Yes it was hard and all of us her that knew you and Charlie are hurting with you. One of the thing you need to do is place his memory in your heart and smile everytime you think of the good times you shared with him. Yes, there were a lot of good times.

[Soonerdogs]

I'm so sorry for your loss. He was a beautiful boy.

[dutchman]

Brooke we all know how much he meant to you we shared your joys and tears as you did your best to work with him. Don't ever blame yourself you gave him much more of a chance to lead a happy normal life than most people would. You didn't let him down and he didn't let you down he just had a problem that couldn't be fixed. He will always have a very special place in your heart and with time you will find it easier to remember the happy times and the hurt of the bad ones will lessen. Take some time for healing.

[doxie4u]

Big hugs to you Brooke. I know you must be hurting. Charlie knew you loved him; there are few people in this world that would have gone the extra mile you did to help Charlie.

Charlie will be waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge.

[Leslie]

Brooke,

So much loss has been around me latley when I took time to read everything going on I couldn't imagin the pain you are going through....he will be okay where he is now and i didn't beleive this until my brother died but charlie will send you signs to reasure you that he is......I hope this doesn't turn your mind away from Dachshunds or dogs for that fact.......just like humans who have depression and nurilogical problems dogs can be just the same and yes with my spike I got lucky with being a pet store dog but damn those puppy mills........I wish I could take your pain away and I wish things like this never happened but I will be thinking of you tonight and if there is anything I can do I will try knowing I am a far distance I can do my best.

Leslie

[Cocoa and Me]

I am so sorry Brooke. I am just a little bit older than you, and can't imagine going through that. You were a good mom, and did everything possible for Charlie. Everything happens for a reason. You did a very humane thing, and I'm sure Charlie is looking down at you right now thanking his wonderful mommy for helping him over the bridge. Many :hug2: :hug2: for you. Things will get better, and one day you'll get another furbaby to love again. Here are some inner strength :rayz: :rayz: :rayz: and a :bighug:
:candle: :candle:

[FourOrchards]

Oh Brooke...I am so sorry. Charlie is running free. I can only imagine how sad you are right now. We are all here for you. :hug2: If you need anything just let us know. You did everything you could for this little guy. You did the best thing for him. He is at peace now. Some day you will love another pup again...like you did for Charlie. Don't blame your self....you did everything you could and more. Please be at peace with your decision...even as hard as it must have been. As time goes on it will get better. Try to remember the good times you shared with Charlie. My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your husband. :angel7:

[SaraInCT]

:angel7: I am so sorry Brooke. Your boy is not gone. He is running free, waiting for you. You did what was best for him and gave him more of your time and love than most people would have. Please find someone who can help you through this. Remember, you did what was best for Charlie and that is an amazing thing.

[Doxie Duo Mom]

I'm sorry Brooke you have our prayers.

[Lambygyrl]

Brooke,
I am so sorry it had to end like this for Charlie -- and I hope that you are ok after your ER visit. Time will heal all wounds and I hope that you will remember the very very best parts about Charlie, and forget the other stuff. You did your very best to take care of him through it all and that shows you are a person of character & commitment.

GodSpeed your little guy over the Bridge, where all the injured & sick doxies are made whole again and the old doxies are young & running free.

:hug2: :hug2: :hug2:

[Rusty's mom]

I have followed your posts about Charlie - hoping and praying that there would be good outcome for you and him. I've not written or shared much about our Rusty and his journey to the bridge. We had to make the same decision you did. We did medications, 2 behaviorists, the nothing in life is free program, we did everything else we could think of. Unfortunately the behavior changes never lasted long and he always seemed to become worse after a 'lull'. We couldn't even pick him up without throwing a blanket over him first - the fear of being bitten by those sharp little teeth ruled our family. Duffer, Holly and Hobbs were also on eggshells as Rusty's behavior determined everything in our home - where we could sit, where we could walk, whether the others could play, company over, just our whole lives. We lived for the odd moment when he was loving. I still cry and grieve and miss my Rustersroo more than words could ever say. Somehow it seemed that it was not Rusty's time - he should have grown old and we wanted to have him with us for so many, many more years. We had him cremated and have kept his ashes - and they do bring some comfort to me.

I've been so hoping that your journey would be more successful than ours. Please know that I can understand your grief and pain. I really hope that one day you will be able to open your heart and home to another dashie. You have so much love to give and I know that there is another little one out there for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers - and I will light a candle for your Charlie tonight. I just know he is at the Bridge with our Rusty, no more demons tormenting them - free to feel good at last.

Take care.
kathy - mom to Duffer, Hobbs, Holly, Dickens and forever mom to Rusty at the bridge.

[Susa]

Brooke, my heart goes out to you and to your family. You did everything you could for Charlie. Hugs to you.

[Heidismom]

My very deepest sympathy to you in your loss of Charlie, but I am so proud that you set him free from whatever was keeping him from being the loving boy he was meant to be! Charlie was a gorgeous boy, and now that he is running free at the Bridge with our other beloved angels, he will have them to ease him into the lifestyle he was meant to have. I know how hard it is to set a beloved furchild free - I have done it twice. The first time with my Fritz, was when I was 28, and it still hurts to have lost him the way I did. He fell in the snow, competing with my parents' poodle for hitting a higher spot peeing on a tree. He wrecked his back, although we did not know that at the time. I only knew he was in pain. We were at the vets' and I had him in a box on my lap. I sneezed and he snapped at ME! My dad said, "That's it - he could have really hurt you!" Then I cried and said, "But Daddy, he's in pain! It isn't his fault!" And my dad said (we already knew the surgery would not help - he was given a 5% chance of even surviving) - "And it's not his fault that he's suffering, we need to set him free!" So we did, just as you set Charlie free! Sheesh, I'm bawling all over the place for both of us! I mourned for a year, and I still cry for my boy - but I know he was free from pain at last! May you remember that Charlie, too, is now free from the pain of hurting others without understanding why. :0204:

[DavidS]

Brooke:
I am so sorry. Most people would have never went through what you did to try to save their beloved pet. You made the only decision that you really could have. Sometimes all the hard work in the world won't make a situation better.

I will say a prayer for you and Charlie. No one could have been a better mom.

[baileylover]

Brooke, you are a courageous person for doing what had to be done. I will not even begin to tell you I know how it feels because I for one have never had to make that type of decision and hopefully never will. You did the best you could and no one or yourself should feel guilty about it. He is in a better place and knows how much you loved him. I will light a candle for him tonight and hope that you are doing better as well. I know Charlie would have wanted you to remember the good times not the bad~

[marthooo]

I am thinking of you and ...all animal souls.
Bless you and Charlie.

[anniesdoxies]

I'm so sorry Brooke, just remember you did all you could. You'll be in my thoughts. I'll light a candle for Charlie

[5weeniesmom]

I am so sorry! I know you are heart broken! U did all u could do and so much more than most others would have done. U had the greatestmost unselfish love for Charlie by letting him go to the bridge. I know it hurts but Charlie is now 100% all the time. Do not feel like u failed, u loved him with everything u had and I am sure that void will be filled with another doxie in the future.

[HawaiiDoxieLover]

My dear Brooke,
I'm so sorry to hear of this. My deepest condolences to your family. I'm crying with you right now. He is not gone; he will forever be with you in your heart, and all our hearts. Thank you for your unconditional love for him and patience with him; you are a better person than most to give him that. I too will light a candle for your gorgeous boy. He is happy now with all of our beloved pets...free from pain.

[the Six Pack]

I am so sorry. Charlie will always live on in your heart.

[WeLoveTaj]

Dear Brooke,
I'm so sorry for your loss. Your pup will always be with you in spirit and in your heart. I'm praying for your strength and his peaceful journey to heaven. Stay strong...you will get through this.

[Daxie Mom]

Brooke I'm so sorry to hear about Charlie. I've been watching in the background and you've had to make the hardest decision of all, God bless you tonight. Please feel at ease because you went above and beyond for your baby and jumped every hurdle to get him the help he neded. He knew youloved him and so tonight he will be free even though you are dying inside. Again I'm so sorry for your loss.:candle:

[rustydaisymom]

Brooke,

Your are in my thoughts and prayers. Please remember that Charlie has been set free from his demons. My deepest sympathy.

[Dackel-Mom]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Brooke ! Somtimes doing the right thing is the hardest, yet the kindest thing to do. Charlie is free now, and all his worries are over. You tried all you could, and at the end you showed your love to him through this final deciscion you made to let him go.......

http://img1.myimg.de/kerzekleinfcc.gif (http://www.myimg.de) RIP little guy - you were loved ! http://img1.myimg.de/kerzekleinfcc.gif (http://www.myimg.de)

[Marion]

I am so very, very sorry Brooke :kfrown: - my sincerest :pray:ers and thoughts are with you during this extremely difficult time, and little Charlie too as he makes his way to The Rainbow Bridge :candle:, where he will be welcomed by all our doggie angels. He knows how much you love him, and you will both be together again one day - tons of :hugs1: for you.

[Mark]

Please accept our deepest sympathies. It is so hard to lose a furkid under any circumstance, but this one must have really been hard.

Charlie is romping and playing at the Bridge with all the other DBB puppers . . . waiting for us to join them.

[marthooo]

Brooke,
I can't say more than anyone has said--but another heart is so sad for you and lighting a candle for Charlie.

[TD'sDad]

Will ask God to help you through this difficult time.

[Joyce]

Brooke I am so sorry, things will get better

[alisoninmd]

Brooke, my heart goes out to you. :hug2: Please take comfort that Charlie is running free, unburdened by the inner demons he could not escape here on earth. Please take comfort in the thought the little boy you love is at peace. I've been following your story for quite some time, and the amount of love and determination you showed with him were more than most anyone would do. Sending you lots of healing :rayz: :rayz: :rayz: .

[annmariek]

Dear Brooke, I have been following your posts about Charlie.... and I have admired your determination and commitment...really showing great maturity and compassion. It is even more amazing when I realize you are only 20 years old !!!! And again I am impressed with the strength it took for you to put Charlie's demons to rest and set him free !!! I know from your post that Charlie had all the love and help that were in your power to give to him. He knew real love and I'm sure that you too have grown having loved him. I am so very sorry that you both had to suffer.....you both deserved better. Please know how lucky Charlie was to have had you...and I hope you open that wonderful loving heart of yours to another furkid when you are ready. You are an amazing young woman....:hug2: :hug2:

[Stanley's Mum]

Your passion and strength for helping Charlie is an inspiration, many people would have given up. Charlie knows you love him and now he is free from whatever it was that kept getting the better of him. You are in my thoughts i'm so very sorry for your loss. :hug2:

[Brooke]

Hi Everyone, and thank you all so much, it really means a lot to sit here and read your comments. My hand is healing much better than expected. I'm still crying a lot but I'm doing better. I just keep thinking hes somehwere I can get him back from. I really cant believe its over, and I'll never get to hold him again. I know hes in a better place, but I just wish he was home with me.