Thunder

[PenneyBoo]

I'm reading how some people are happy they made it past a week or a month since their little one has past......mine past today and I'm finding myself crying so hard I can't breathe sometimes. I never lost a pet before and Thunder was such a big part of the family and my life. I have four others, but each hold a place in your heart that noone else can replace. If anything I am shocked this all happened. He went in for surgery one minute, the next minute he's in cardiac arrest and had lost half of his brain due to swelling.....WHAT HAPPENED?? Here it is, 4th of July, a date I will never forget but will always hate, and as I sit here and watch people enjoy their fireworks I will be in doors hating life wondering why the Lord decided to take MY little bundle. It hasn't been 12 hours yet and the pain is only getting worse. I miss you Thunder and I know your in good hands now, but it doesn't make me feel any better......maybe with time it will. I love you and noone will ever take your place! At night when I look up and see the one star that stands out of them all, I know it's you looking down at me......I miss you so much it hurts! Will I ever get over this???

[zoeysmom]

I miss you so much it hurts! Will I ever get over this???

Yes, ultimately after time (sometimes a long time) it gets less painful. But it does get better. Perhaps with time, everytime you see fireworks you can smile a bit and think of all the wonderful times you and Thunder had together.

I can only tell you my experience. You will never forget, and for me sometimes now, even a couple of years later, I'll somtimes tear up when remembering.

I was numb for the first few hours. Then in the next 4 days only managed to eat one egg and sleep for about a total of 6 hours. Finally I was so exhausted I had to sleep and friends came to take me out of the house and 'forced' me to eat something. I had Sadie cremated, and in some strange way, it was better once I got her ashes back with me. They're in my headboard and I often still touch her and say goodnight.

The grief is real and can be overwhelming. There may be groups in your area where you can share grief over losing a pet (there is one in my county that meets on Saturday mornings.) Many here DO understand the loss you feel now. It's OK to feel it, others who have never felt close to an animal may not understand...but many of us do.

Hugs to you, Thunder is at the bridge waiting for you.

[Lambygyrl]

I'm so sorry.... I lost my first doxie, Shelby, :angel: the day after Mother's Day 2000. I was single/divorced at the time, and I sobbed every night the minute I got in the car to drive home from work because I knew my Shelby wasn't going to be there for me. This went on for weeks. I met my husband, my forever husband, 6 weeks after she died... and I think Shelby chose him for me & sent him ... he loves all dogs. When I look at black & tans I still feel a pang, because she was just soooooo special to me. Its gonna take some time... hold the memories close in your heart. The best thing is that you have some other babies to help you & comfort you. They will be confused, too, missing Thunder. Its ok to cry, many of us here at DBB have lost dogs & we understand, each & every one is special in his or her own way. Thunder is not suffering, and he is faithfully waiting for you at the bridge. :hug2: :hug2: :hug2:

[oti'smom]

I just read your post with great sadness. It just does not seem fair and I do not know much about Thunder or your situation, but sometimes there is no explanation. How old was your sweet puppers? I know we are supposed to be grateful for the time we were given with them, but that is easy to say when you want him back now! I know that Thunder also appreciates all the love you had/have in your heart for him. I am sure the shock and unexpectedness of all of this does not help. Please just allow yourself to grieve and be kind to yourself in the coming days. Allow friends and family to take care of you and find comfort in your other pets, as well. There is no magic formula to take this all away or we would in a heartbeat! Please come back and share whenever you need to. I wish I could give you a big :hug2: in person. Please know I will be thinking of you and your loss.

Otis's mommy,

Anita

[Susa]

Awwwww, I'm so sorry to hear this. You have my deepest sympathies.

[Irminsul]

I am so sorry you are in such pain. It will get better. It will take time.

Don't blame the date. Don't question everything. Be angry, be sad, let yourself feel. It's normal. We are here for you!!! :hug2:

[Joyce]

So very sorry to hear of your loss, I know it hurts so bad, Time will help, your little one will always be special in your heart. Try and think of all the wonderful memories you have. :hug2:

[Stanley's Mum]

I am so very sorry, sweet Thunder is running free at the bridge with my Maxi (he went to the bridge in march) i know your pain and some days i still cry till i think i can cry no more. The hurt from losing someone we love cuts so deep and the grief at times can be unbearable but in time it does ease, you still have your good and bad days but the pain will subside. Please know that we are all here for you to lean on and rest assured Thunder knows how much you love him but he would not want you to hurt so much, he is at the bridge, free from pain looking down on you with all our babies that we have lost. It was his time, he will remain in your heart forever and no one can take that from you. Take care and remember we are all here for you. :hug2:

[maddoxies]

I am so sorry.

It is always hard to lose one, but when it is sudden (not old age or a prolonged illness) it is even harder.

Time dulls the pain, but as others have said, years later we still can tear up at times.

My special, special golden girl left me the day before Halloween. It was so hard to answer the door to all those happy, carefree children - and it almost killed me when the ones who knew us asked for the dog.

Thunder lived up to his name and had a thunderous send off to the Bridge with the fireworks.

I lost my golden boy last year, with almost no notice. For a month, there were times at work when I had to close my office door and cry. I have 2 very special furbabies at the Bridge, waiting for me. I believe that my third furbaby, my "special, special golden girl" did not wait for me at the Bridge, but rather, she went on when "grampa" arrived. She and my dad had a very special bond.

I am sitting here writing this with tears in my eyes, for the babies I have lost and for your pain too. I have my own 2 doxie babies at my feet along with my current foster. I know that I am setting myself up for more pain when these babies go to the Bridge, but life would be more painful without them.

:hug2: as you go through the grieving process (and DO grieve, however you need to. I wore black and my doggie angel pin for a month after losing my last boy to leukemia).

[Dackel-Mom]

It's never easy having to say good-bye, and it hurts so much........... Thunder is free from pain now, and as long as his memory is alive he will live on in your heart. I'm so sorry about your loss. http://img1.myimg.de/kerzekleinb56.gif (http://www.myimg.de)

[Julian&MistyMom]

Oh, I am so very sorry. My deepest condolences. My thoughts are with you.

[Jenn]

I am so sorry to hear about Thunder. I tear up everytime i hear about the lost of one of our puppers, especially in a situation like this. Everything happens for a reason I believe. Just think, those fireworks helped light his way and he was probably wandering what all the fuss was about. I will light a candle tonite in his memory.

[Suzanne R]

I am so very sorry - nothing I could write will make it feel better. Time helps, but it takes a LOT of that. Prayers going to help your furbaby make it easily over the Bridge.:hug2: :hug2:

[CoppersOtherMom]

I am so sorry for your loss.

*hugs*

Tina

[Mark]

There is no logical reason why a furkid, so loved, goes to the Bridge. No, we do not have the answers . . . but we've been there.

We just believe that one day, when we pass . . . that we will be reunited . . .

In the meantime . . . we are here . . . for you and *with* you. We *get* it!

[MomToMazzy&More]

I am so very sorry for your loss of Thunder. I can only imagine how devastated you must be. My heart aches for you. Take care. :0204:

[Heidismom]

I am sitting here, crying for Thunder, as well as my beloved furkids who have passed on to the Bridge. Yes, it does get easier to bear, and you will still be frantic with grief, and wondering "why oh why", but it will ease, slowly. As many others have done, have you considered making a memory book of Thunder's pictures and typing/writing/printing out some favorite Thunder stories and escapades, so you can look through the pages and remember the happy times? {{{Hugs}}}

[SirOliversMom]

I am so sorry for your loss. I will get easier but in the meantime it hurts A LOT.

We at DBB understand your loss and your grief. My deepest sympathies and hugs to you.

[FourOrchards]

I'm so sorry to hear your loss of Thunder. It's never easy but it does get better. We lost our sheltie Bailey right around my son's birthday and for the first few years he was always reminded of us loosing her. It made him and us pretty sad it had to happen near his birthday. Now we remember the happy times with Bailey. She's not forgotten because we remember near my son's birthday...but we aren't sad anymore we remember the happy times we shared with her.
It will get easier....the pain will ease in time. :hug2:

[Leslie]

I too like others wish we could understand why its just one question that will never be able to know the answer to........its been 3 weeks since I lost my brother and it does get a little easier still have tough moments but in the end I know he is where pain doesn't exsist.......I pray for you tonight and keep you in my thoughts I wish I could take the pain away but no one can do that for you I wish you well!