I changed my sig with Ivy next to Chewy.

[doxunzX3]

I am having a rough time with having lost Ivy so fast. It just took me so much by surprise that I seem to just feel lost with out her here. Even with dog sitting for 2 other dogs in the house it just isn't the same. We always did a little extra's for her. Even though she wasn't a doxie that needed a lot of extra love'n. She came to you when she wanted it. Then would just move out of reach when she had enough. When we lost her a couple years ago I just felt so terrible not knowing how she was or where. Now it doesn't seem right that she isn't here any more. I still can't believe that I didn't know she was sicker than just having arthritis problems and maybe a bladder infection. I have always been so good at spotting problems with the dogs before they get out of control.
Thanks for listening and letting me go on about her. Thankfully she isn't feeling any pain anymore. I know that some day I will be able to look at the fun things we did together and remember all the trips out in the woods that she loved. Even on her last day she was smiling going for her last walk in the Elderado Marsh. We let her off lead and she loved it. I am glad that they let me leave work to be able to do that last walk.

[maddoxies]

Changing your signature is another step in the grieving/healing process.

I know it is hard not to beat yourself up. I did that too - my Champ did not present symptoms of the leukemia until the end.

I can't tell you for how long after we lost Callie that I would automatically get two dog cookies from the bin instead of only one.

Life is about balance. Life balances the great joy and love our furbabies give us with (unfortunately) the depth of grief when they pass. The depth of our grief is a tribute to their lives and what they gave during that (shorter than ours) life.

:hug2:

[Irminsul]

Oh Sandy, I know how much you loved that beautiful girl! Please, try not to feel guilty about missing symptoms. You did what you could. She knows you love her!:hug2:

[dutchman]

she sounds like she was a lot like my Tanner who happens to also be my four leg alpha. To me there is always that special reward when he lets me give him attention or special play time. Most of the time he seems to think it's not proper to get that involved with me. It's like as alpha he is afraid to let his softer loving side out too much. He also tends not to let on very fast if he is having any health issues. I think once again it's an alpha thing for him show any sign of weakness and the pack might fall apart.

Any of us that have spent enough years with little four leg companion will have at least one major what if we might easily fall into the trap of but the key is not to let those things trap us we have to remember the happy times and special moments we had with our little ones and only use the what if as a guide for us in the future if looking back we see something we now feel we should of noticed sooner or gotten to a vet sooner then let that guide us or pass on the information to others in the future but don't let those thoughts cast a shadow over all the happy memories we have of our departed ones.

We are here use our shoulders to dry or lean on any time.:hug2:

[doxunzX3]

Thanks so much for your kind words. It is good that I have had to stay home today. Mostly because of the heat. Our doxie meetup has been cancelled. Funny how we made each one over the winter. But it's been good just to sit home and miss my girl. It comes and goes but I know after having had multiple dogs that it does get better. One more day of letting go of the pain and getting on to remembering the good times and wonderful memories of her.
:thanx: :hearts: