Queenie

[Dukey's Mom]

I am writing this through tears that continue to fall. I lost Queenie at 1:30 this afternoon, and I still cannot believe it. She had such a set back, and the fight in her was over.

I cannot even express how sad I am right now, and how angry I am, after all she has been through, to be lost now.

I drove to Boston with her today, in the hopes that maybe a specialist could help her. They put her in an oxygen tent,and she only worsened.

I am so very very sad, that she didn't make it to her birthday. I can't stop crying. I loved her so very much. I cannot understand how this has happened. This little girl went down so fast. The whole way to Boston, she had her new sweater on, and just stared at me.

I'm sorry, I feel as if my heart is breaking right now.
I am having her cremated, and will bury her here, so I can visit with her.

I can't stop crying, why Queenie, she has fought so hard, it is so unfair. I was to officially adopt her the first of the year.

She lost that light in her eye, and I guess I should have known it was coming. I have presents wrapped for her, and that is going to kill me.

I thank you all so much, and am as sad for all of you, as I am for her. I pray, that I will see her again at some point, I hope to God I do.

She was very special, and I will miss her more than I can express.I can't see to type, and I am just so sad, forgive me.

I keep picturing her running in the yard, and bouincing around the kitchen when I got home from work. That sweet sweet face of hers, and the tail in overdrive, why has this happened?


God bless our Queenie, and where ever she is right now, I hope she knows how many people love her.

My heart is broken, and it will be a long night.

I wi;; never forget this little angel, and I hope she doesn't me.

Sorry for the news

Andrea

[Wienergal]

Dear Andrea, all I can do is share your sorrow. I can't stop crying either. There are no words to let you know how sad I am, for you and for Queenie.

I am sending a little message to Doggerel to make sure he meets her at the Bridge and helps her across.

You gave her her only real life. What a gift. Try to keep that in mind.

I'll light an extra candle in a few minutes for Queenie, our sweet girl. I'm so sorry.

[SandyLynn]

Andrea, I can't tell you how sorry I am. I don't know what to say, except that you did everything you possibly could for her, and she died knowing she was very much loved. I'm about to light my candle for the Rescue Dogs and those at the Bridge, and I have a separate special candle just for Queenie.

[Roxane]

Dear Andrea:
Please know that in so many homes, like ours, the extra candle that is glowing is for Queenie. I loved and thought of her as though she were one of ours. She was a miracle dachsie. The fact that she found her way into your arms and your heart was also a miracle. Over the past few months you more than made up for the life she endured before she came to you. Take comfort that she is no longer having to fight so hard. Take comfort in knowing that you made her so happy.
There is nothing I can say to ease your grief but I want you to know I understand and am grieving too.
Love,
Roxane


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[Maggie Aggie]

Andrea,

I've been reading about Queenie and keeping up with her story for a long while now, but I've never posted in the thread before. I just wanted you to know how sorry I am. Along with everyone else here, I've really been pulling for the Queen.

Always know that you were her angel. You taught her how to love and how to trust again. Because of you, she learned how to play and how to stockpile treats. You will always be Queenie's mommy.

I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

Vicki and Maggie

[Rosalyn]

Andrea,
So sorry for your loss. You fought the good fight. You gave your all! And guess what you will see Queenie in Heaven. I know that for sure. Hope you know that because of Queenie that at least I will never go to the pet store again. I will only rescue any age dogs. Thanks for putting up with stupid old me. Because I am guilty as charged. It was I who tried to post today and the system lost your whole thread on your Queenie update. Sorry, I was informed that it happened a couple weeks ago too. I feel so bad. A lot of people were saying they were grateful your dad was doing good. And sending lots of Love to Queenie. God is Smiling down on you for caring so much for the little creatures He has created for our joy. Your little Queen has diamonds on her crown! And I know YOU could see her hallo, because she was an angel here on earth. To be used for God's purpose and you were her messenger to us. THANKS for being obedient, you will be rewarded for that!

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[Dolly's Mom]

Andrea,

Though we are all sad with Queenie's passing, please know this; You did more good for that sweet deserving little girl than anyone else. You gave her a REAL life for the first time in her life. She got to experience love and affection. You did so much for her and cared truly with your heart. Smile through your tear, my friend. Our Queenie is at rest but not before she experienced true love. Andrea, you are my hero! <IMG SRC="http://dachsie.org/ubb/cwmsmilies/cwm38.gif" border=0>

Sending love to comfort you,
Sandi

[Dukey's Mom]

I am so sad, I hope I didn't let her down. I can't help but think that.

I was alone when it happenend, and they wanted to know what I wanted to do with her body, and I couldn't think. I just knew I wanted her back. We can't break ground, and that just kills me,,so I had her cremated, and then I will bury her in the field that she loved to try to run in.

I still cannot even grasp this, and I am crying too hard.

I will write later. Please do not forget her story, I know I never will.


Andrea

[~Jen~]

Dear Andrea
I am so sorry to hear the sad news about Queenie. You gave her the only real home and love she ever knew. One day you will meet her at the bridge and you can walk over togather. We will light a extra candle for her. I have sent her name to the Watchula Woman for her prayer chain. Godspeed Queenie Girl. We sure will miss that little angel <IMG SRC="http://dachsie.org/ubb/cwmsmilies/cwm14.gif" border=0> <IMG SRC="http://dachsie.org/ubb/cwmsmilies/cwm14.gif" border=0>

HUGS
Jen

[georgette]

<FONT face="Comic Sans MS">Andrea the last words in your posts are always so poignant. Andrea, Queenie, how could we forget you? We're all holding each other together in our spiritual pain. I guess that right now Queenie is the only one of us who is not in pain - hard to imagine, isn't it? I'm sure that she's looking down on you/us right now and joining our "group hug". Queenie is happy and at peace although I'm sure sending her very own special healing rays to us all. That really isn't so strange, is it, to have Queenie sending rays to us?

What a tribute to you and what a special person you are Andrea that you were picked to be her human Mom and that you are the one she is waiting to meet again someday. How honored you are Andrea to be given charge of Queenie and her symbolism to us all as a rescue dog. You could hardly ask for a greater partner to share your life's task and your destiny.

I lit a candle for Queenie and for Barkley too. I hadn't heard yet. Somehow that computer glitch seemed like an omen. And when you said that she hadn't been herself these last few days Andrea...

How fitting that Queenie's been reborn in this season of rebirth for many of us, Christians and Jews alike. She was born to be our inspiration and our joy.
The reason that you are going to be happy again Andrea is because Queenie is happy again. I like to wonder about what it's like for those reaching the bridge for the first time - kind of like a birthday of sorts. I wonder how the others welcome her, how they celebrate, how they show love for those of us temporarily left behind, who comes to meet her and show her the way - oh Andrea we are all overflowing with emotion. During the night and the next few days especially, let's know that we're all sharing comfort together with this beautiful soul.

I know I'm babbling. I just don't know what to say.

Love, Georgette Text</FONT f>

[Susan's Freddie98]

Dear Andrea,

I'm crying as if Queenie were mine. Please feel assured that you did not let her down, she did let you know that she was tired of fighting, and was ready to go. She is now at peace and resting comfortably.

We're all feeling your pain and trying to understand this. They say things happen for a reason. Please try to find comfort in knowing that she left this earth feeling loved and cared for. She can now finally run in the field behind you.

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Andrea, I want to thank you again for all you did for Queenie. It's going to be hard getting through the next few days. May I make a suggestion? You could bury her presents with her? Just a thought, of course you do what you feel is best.

If I had ONE wish, it would be to have puppy mills gone forever! I'm very angry.

Take all the time you need for a good break. We're still here for you.
We love ya, and of course we will always remember Queenie, the Angel.<IMG SRC="http://dachsie.org/ubb/cwmsmilies/cwm37.gif" border=0>

Sincerely,
Susan

[dutchman]

Andrea,

I know mere words don't mean much at a time like this. All I can do is think back to April when Aggie's body failed her and I had to let her go. That last time I saw and comforted her was the only time she didn't react when I walked into the CCU. The only sign that she may have known I was there that morning was a final finger kiss just before the doctor put the needle in her IV.

There comes a time when our little friends are tired and no longer have the strength to fight. They haven't given up on you and neither your nor you vets gave up on them it was just their bodies that failed them.

It won't be easy I know but you will get through. I know with a little time another little fur kid needing your caring heart will wonder your way and help fill the huge hole that is there right now. No one will replace Queeneie we can never replace ones we loose but we find new little ones who need our help and help to mend our broken hearts.

It seems loosing these special needs little ones that we invest extra time and effort in is even harder than loosing our average companions. I think it's all the time and love that these special little ones require that creates such a bond that makes our grieving so difficult.

Take care of yourself Andrea, I'm starting to wander. The tears have come some for you and Queenie some from my memories of Aggie. Just as soon as I hit the post tab I'll have to reach down and pick up my boys.

Tom

[Mark]

Andrea,

I am sitting here crying like I was a little boy again. You and Queenie gave us all a faith & love like that of a child, so it is fitting that I feel this way.

Your place in her life was that of the only love and normalcy she's ever had. Your place in her death is that it's you she's waiting for at the Bridge.

I am so heartbroken that I don't have any more words.

Love & a big hug,

Mark

[isobelsmom]

Andrea,

I, too, am crying so hard the screen is blurring. I'm so sorry Queenie has left us. As all have said before me: She IS waiting for you at the Bridge, ready to thank you for all you have done for her, ready to thank you for loving her and allowing her into your heart and home. Thank you Andrea for believing in this little girl and giving your heart and love to her so freely. You are a hero to me, my friend. You are a hero to all of us.

I have asked my two rescue babies to meet Queenie at the bridge and to show her the way. Digger and Miss Kai will be there.

Know that we love you and are here for you in your grief.

Love and hugs,

mary

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[DOCHSIEMOM]

Andrea,
I am so sorry to here news about Queenie. I know how special she was to you. I've been following all the updates you have posted about her, and through those I too have come to love her. I know she is running and playing on the other side of the bridge now, with her tail in overdrive. My prayers are with you.
Diane
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[WOTANSMUTTI]

Dear Queenie,

there sure are many on this board who will miss your stories of continuing courage and your adopted mom's fight to save you for this world.
As it turned out, you stayed the allotted time allowed to you to give and teach those that knew you and of you- that was your priceless gift.

What I hold close to my heart is how much a little spirit can glow so bright to give so many hope in her future.
I'll never forget you Queen- for you were named right: for royalty


With tears,
Sonja

[2DogsLong]

Andrea,

Thank you for giving Queenie the experience of love and for sharing her with us. You did everything you could for her but she just couldn't fight anymore. She'll be waiting for you at the bridge with clear lungs and will run with you forever.

You are a hero and an example for all of us. Next September Debbie (CCDR -Ontario) and I are going to try to put up a booth at the Toronto Humane Society walk to educate people about mills and what they should know before buying a dog. We'd like to dedicate our work and the booth to Queenie and to share yours and her story with everyone. We will make sure that each person who leaves the booth will NEVER BUY A PUPPY FROM A PET STORE.

Take care of yourself, Andrea. We love you.

Sue

[Lili's Mama]

Andrea, we can always think of Queenie as our own special Christmas angel. You gave her what she needed most....genuine love. Can't you just see her sitting on a royal purple pillow with her crown slightly tilted, looking down at all of us and knowing how we loved her and and all our furbabies.

[~Jen~]

I hope you dont mind i asked for Queenies name to be added to this memorial page. Here is the link she is joined by some many wonderful dogs of all breeds. I know she will be in good company at the bridge.
http://www.geocities.com/dogladybarks/Remembrancepg.html
and http://www.geocities.com/dogladybarks/mondaynightcandleceremony.html
HUGS
Jen

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[Oscar's Mom]

Andrea, I am so sorry. Queenie was a special girl, I cant stop my tears.
You gave her the best gift anyone could have ever given her, you showed her love and a caring home. Its wonderful that she was able to know things.
Bless you and your family in this difficult time.
Debbie

[Augie Dog]

Andrea,

You gave our Queen the best gift of all, love, play and the time to be spoiled a little.

I will remember the first time you posted that she was running around playing, something she never did before. Don't be sad that she is gone, be happy that with the time she had with you that she spent it being loved, warm and needed. Not caged, cold, unwanted and alone.

Thank you for giving us in your postings part of the love you showed her. We can all be happy that our Queen had the best possable care and the most love that any rescue could ever get. You tried your best and we prayed our hardest. Some things have a reason that we just don't understand until a later day.<IMG SRC="http://dachsie.org/ubb/cwmsmilies/cwm34.gif" border=0>

David & Aug

[Dukey's Mom]

I can never thank you all enough for your kindness with our Queen, I truly think she belonged to all of us.

It is Christmas eve, and my heart is so heavy, I am going to church shortly, and I am sitting here crying, I miss her terribly. I pray she will serve as an example of those damn mills. I am so so sad, and angry at the same time.

Her presents will be buried with her, but I don't think I will ever get over her, she was just too special, it all seems surreal. They have posted on the CCDR page, albeit the wrong date , about her.

I am just sad, I cannot even express it. I have 3 beautiful pictures of her that I am getting developed. If anyone wants one, please let me know.

I will never be able to thank you enough for all your prayers and kindness about her, I wish you could have met her. Everyone that did, knew she was special. This Christmas, is not a happy one for me, Queenie didn't make it to her birthday, and that just kills me. Words cannot express how I feel right now. I want her back in the worst way, Tom, I can understand how you felt now, and I am truly sorry.

Jen, thank you putting her up on your page.

May God bless Queenie and all of you this Christmas. I do ask if you all wouldn't mind, please say a prayer for our Queenie, she fought so hard , and finally lost the battle.

She was truly a special girl, and I will never go a day without thinking about her.

To be honest, I am a mess right now, I thought she would hang in there, I guess I was mistaken, but I will never forget her. Please pray that I make it through the holidays without her, I just feel as though my heart is breaking. It is so unfair.

God bless all of you, and I thank you with all my heart for Queenie and myself, she needed all of you, as did I.

Merry Christmas, may God bless all of you and our Queen.

Andrea

[WOTANSMUTTI]

Andrea-

I'm sending you some healing raaayzzz now. I read all those poems Dutchman has been posting and I cry.

Frank came home yesterday and found me choked up and red-eyed. I couldn't even tell him about what had happened without crying. He's bummed out too, since I've always made him keep up with the Queen's health trials.

I was also really depressed after reading the Wyoming Update. It was a terrible day, but for you it is worse and will be before it gets better. I'm sure you feel that.

I'll be thinking of you- Queenie has already received a prayer from me.

Take it easy- Sonja

[Tanya]

Andrea,
I've been away and I just read this post about dear Queenie. I cannot express my sicere sorrow over her loss.I've been especiall sad as today, Christmas Eve, is a year ago that I lost my Punkin, and to read about Queenie today brought such sadness to my heart. I am thinking of you and will remember you in prayer. Just know that you did all you could for Queenie and she knew such love with you in your/her home. Bless you Andrea.
Tanya

[pluto'slanie]

Dear Andrea, My heart aches for you. http://dachsie.org/ubb/smilies/crying.gif In this season of miracles we all hoped that little Queenie would make it and beat the odds. How lucky for you both that you found each other. You offered Queenie a lifetime of love in a short span. What a wonderful gift. My babies Wiggles, Junior and Girlfriend are looking out for Queenie at the bridge. My prayers are with you. Lanie

[Dukey's Mom]

Merry Christmas my dear friends, I never would make it through this without you. I know now how you felt when you lost one of yours, this is a first for me, I have never lost a pup before, I guess I have been lucky.

We have a candle going for Queenie today, and I said a special prayer for her last night. So many people are saddened by her passing.

I was just sitting on the kitchen floor, watching the kids playing with their new toys, thinking how unfair she isn't playing with hers. I just feel so sad, I am trying to think that at least she had some good times.

I am putting Dec 25th on her tombstone for her birthdate, because I still think she was our little miracle. I'm looking through catalogs now to find one for her, then I will get back to celebrating Christmas. God now has a special little angel to help him.


Merry Christmas, and I will never be able to thank you all enough for helping us throughout this whole ordeal.

Andrea and Queenie

[Rosalyn]

Andrea,
Our Queenie was here at this time to give us a very special message. I know I sure got it! And yes, you went above and beyond what was required of you. Your love and devotion to your special puppy was ALL that was required and that SHE is and will be forever in my heart. I have I believe bought a puppy mill puppy and supported their business by buying from a pet shop. Know the voice of Queenie and her precious devoted Mom will forever sound forth here. I live in PA and I am even going to check around here at the Mennonites who sell pure breds. I will just be (snooping my nose) and checking on conditions. The thing is they willingly let you around to visit. And they sell all kinds of produce and such. They are getting so worldly too! Queenie is a chosen example. And I thank God for you too! Rosalyn, Bedford Cty. PA

[georgette]

<FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><FONT COLOR="Red">I love that you signed your message Andrea and Queenie.
and
Queenie IS playing with her toys just like the others.</FONT c></FONT f>

[Jennifer]

Andrea,

I am bawling as a I have so many times before over this sweet girl.

I haven't been on the board for a few days and just heard the news. Everyone else has already said everything so well. You were Queenie's angel, that's why she had the angel bear!!

You were picked to show her love and give her a great life. And she was here to inspire all of us. Bless you for all the love and enery you put into this dear girl.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[dutchman]

Andrea,

Thank you for letting us know you are coping. Things won't be easy for a while but you will get thought. Like Queenie we know you are a fighter.

I thought of you several times today. Tanner celebrated his second birthday today. We had been toying with the idea of Christmas being his birthday. He truly amazed me last night and today. He is my shy aggressive little boy and he did great in home with up to 14 people. I'll write more about him in another forum. Perhaps Queenie was helping to watch over him and make sure he was on good behavior and keep him out of trouble.

Post as often or seldom as you feel the need. The tears will lessen with time. Another little one in need of help will find their way into you home and heart some day. Perhaps tomorrow perhaps a year from now. You just never know what dog or what time. I was lucky that Frank was spotted by a friend just a week to the day after I had to say goodbye to Aggie and Tanner was looking for a home when I got ready to add a second. People tell me Frank was destine for me. He was a featured dog representing the humane society at a vet teaching hospital over the weekend just before my friend spotted him on a Monday. Frank an outgoing six month old boy great with children went unadopted that weekend. Then Monday night as I was filling out the adoption forms a couple came in who had heard of Frank and would have adopted him if I hadn't. They were very gracious about the whole thing. They had meet Aggie and me at the weenie roast the previous spring and when they learned she had died they said I needed Frank much more than they did. They have two dachshund. Their older dog is starting to have some health problems and the younger one can't stand to be alone so they want to expand their family. Tanner had been a hard to place dog because of his shyness. A home with children wouldn't even be considered. He had been in foster care for 2.5 months when I send in my adoption application to Colorado Dachshund Rescue. My rescue friends knew I had experience with a shy dog who took extra time and effort with Aggie so they were very hopeful that I would give Tanner a home. Tanner has a home and is making progress. I hope by sharing the story of me boys you will be able to smile a little and be looking forward to the next special little one that Queenie's sprint will guide your way.

Best wishes,

Tom and the boys (Frank and Tanner)

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[weenie]

Andrea,

I have just finally got caught up on all of my posts and am so sorry to learn of what happened to Queenie.

Please know that she was special to all of us as well and that you provided her with nothing but happiness and love which will I am fully covinced will come back to you tenfold. Thank you for having the love and strength to care for these wayward dachsies and may God bless you.

I have a special candle lit for Queenie and our family's dearly departed furkids as well. Hang in there, it will get easier ( I know because we lost a family pet last Christmas too.)

Take Care,

Kris

PS - Willi sends you many XXXXOOOOO's

[Dukey's Mom]

I called the hospital and she is still there. She will be cremated in the next few days and then be sent home. She will be in a brass urn with her name on it.

Thanks for all your kind words. I made up some pictures last night of her during her better days. I have them up already. This is just so hard, but I am so grateful I can come here and be understood.

She was lucky to have had all of of.

Andrea

[Meemoo]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to imagine how it is. I admire your strength and applaud how you've treated your special dachsie. I hope someday your pain will be lessened and only remember the wonderful joyful times you had with Queenie.

Loren

[omar_my_friend]

Andrea,

I am so sorry to hear about Queenie. I have read all the ups and downs with Queenie and the stories always moved me. Queenie is a special girl and she had the pleasure of being with you.

Bill

[Mickamack]

Andrea,

I was away for the holiday, but when I read about Queenie, my heart just broke. I cried for the loss of such a special little girl, and I cried for the undescribable pain you must be feeling. Even though you see them sick, it still never prepares you for when they leave us. My heart goes out to you and you will be in my prayers. I'm so sorry.

Karen

[georgette]

Andrea, Sometime let us know how Christmas was spent for you. The writing might be cleansing for you but of course you know best. Snuggle in during the incoming snow. Love, Georgie

[Dukey's Mom]

I had a horrible night, all I did was cry. I got a beautiful card from the vet in Boston, I was really surprised. She said she knew how special Queenie was and how sorry she was.

She said the disease within her body just became too severe. It is one week today, I just can't believe it. I find myself expecting her when I go home, or that I need to pick her up at the vets, it's so strange.

This as is bad as when my mother died, I feel just as sad. I am not coping well with this.

Anyway, as Georgette said, we are getting a huge storm and I have to go stock up on suppplies.

Thanks for letting me vent.

Andrea

[Meemoo]

I'm so sorry you are feeling so badly. I hope the pain eases with time. I'll be thinking of you when Chiefy goes out for his first snow tomorrow..YIKES!! Hoping he will do his business. Wish me luck!! Hope you have a happy New Year!!

Loren

[dutchman]

Hello Andrea,

You might want to ask you vet and or doctor if they know of any grief centers near you. Our vet teaching hospital has a grief counseling center. While I did not use it when I lost Aggie I have know others who have used it to help cope with both the loss of pets and relatives.

Best wishes,

Tom and the boys (Frank and Tanner)

[Shelbie]

Oh no Andrea. I've just come on the board after being away over Christmas and I'm so very sorry for your loss. We lost my Mum just after Christmas thirty years ago so I can sort of understand what you're going through. Please remember the happy times with Queenie - just think how loved she felt with you after her awful start in life. I have a feeling she may at this moment be being cuddled by an English lady who looks a bit like me. Much love, you'll get through this cos we'll all help you.
Debbie and Shelbie

[dutchman]

Andrea,

I just did some checking on the CSU web pages and hope the following link may be of some help to you. http://www.cvmbs.colostate.edu/changes/ I see the changes program will take calls and also offers information packets.

Good luck,

Tom

[Mickamack]

Andrea,

I know when I lost my Buddy, I cried for weeks. I was at work when I got the call that he had died. I was a complete mess. We had to drive 2.5 hours up to Cornell to pick up my dead best friend and I had to ride 2.5 hours back with him on my lap, in a tiny little box. That was the longest, hardest day of my life.

Every time I would walk in the house, I would expect to hear him or see him scampering around. There would be times I would turn around and SWEAR that I saw him. For weeks, at bedtime, I would talk to him and pray for him, and then cry myself to sleep. I also would suddenly burst into tears. I would have a memory or hear something on the radio and I would just lose it. People must have thought I was nuts! I didn't think the pain would ever, ever go away. And in many ways, it still hasn't. If I think about it too much, like while I'm trying to write this to you...I'm crying right now, because it's still so fresh and painful for me. And that's 3 years ago.

So please don't think there is something wrong with the grief you're feeling. You need to process and handle this grief in your own way. I've had to do it, as many others on this board as well. We feel your pain. It reminds us of our own. We share in your pain, and I for one will help you in any way I can help you carry the burden of that pain. Please just let me know if I can help you in any way. I know just how heavy that burden can feel.

Please don't ever feel like you're weighing us down. Please don't ever feel like you can't come here when you need to talk, or get out all those thoughts that swim in your head, or just to cry.

I firmly believe that writing down your thoughts really help you process what's going on in your head. I wrote letters to the vets who took care of Buddy. I thanked them for trying their best to help him, for caring for him, for being kind to him. And I told them how special Buddy was. I heard back from each one of them and they told me how much it meant to them. I also wrote a memorial for Buddy. Both of those really helped me grieve. Maybe you could try something like that.

If you're looking for some other ideas, I saw that some people gave links to CSU. If you're interested here's the link to Cornell's site. Maybe you can find something here: http://web.vet.cornell.edu/public/petloss/

Eventually, the pain subsides. You'll go for longer periods without crying. But I don't think the pain ever really goes away completely. You are a different person because of Queenie. She has completely changed your life, so she will always have a special place in your heart. That's a good thing. I'm glad that you have some pictures of her in her better days. Look at those often because she never had ANY good days... until she met you. God brought her into your life for a reason and I'm sure you will see one another again...only then, she won't be sick or scared. She'll be healthy and happy and ready to spend eternity with you.

Again, if there's anything I can do, just let me know. Our hearts are crying with yours.

Karen

[WOTANSMUTTI]

Andrea,
just checking in after the 25t to see how you are. It makes me sad that you are sad-

My horse got sick this week and I still feel bad about that. I guess we animal types feel the weight of our fur friends when they aren't right and it makes us feel guilty when we can't take away their pain.

Felica is feeling much better today. She ran away from her medication and tried to chase me around the pasture! That's a real plus!

Snuggle down for the next few days and I'll be watching the blizzard from here! Maybe Pamela could spare a few snoods?

Hang in there Mizz Andrea.
Hugs to the dachsies from their friend Wotan.

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Sonja

[dutchman]

Hi Andrea,

By all means keep posting as often as you feel the need. I hope you didn't think by posting the CSU changes web site I was suggesting you shouldn't post here. I just wanted to share another source to turn too if you are feeling like you need some more help in coping.

This board is a great place to find help. I first started posting here after loosing Aggie last April. The board cam be a great support group as you already know. I was lucky just a week after loosing Aggie Frank found me and he needed a home. Having another little one around who needed some attention helped. I still had a difficult time for a while. Work was a struggle, trying to complete task as treasure of our running club was almost impossible. Our club has a major race that was less than two weeks after I lost Aggie and as treasure there were many bills to get paid and I also had process cash and checks for over 900 runners. Right now the tears will help. The tears will lessen with time but you will still find times that you remember or read something and have to shed another tear for Queenie. I know when I posted the poems that had been sent to me when I lost Aggie I teared up. My tears were a combination of reliving my loss and for Queenie.

You are a strong person Andrea, you had to be to make it through every thing you did with Queenie. Give yourself time to grieve you will make it through this. With time you will be able to smile more thinking about the happy moments with Queenie like when she ate the angle bears wing. No one can say how long it will be before the good days out number the bad ones.

By the way how is your Father doing. I hope he is behaving himself. I see you said your mother is dead, does you father have anyone living with him to help take care of him. If he doesn't have anyone and is living alone I would suggest you get back in touch with your rescue contacts and find him a little companion if he is open to the idea. You know having someone who needs you can do a lot to help speed recovery.

Best Wishes,

Tom and the boys (Frank and Tanner)

[georgette]

<FONT face="Comic Sans MS">I'm glad you wrote to us Andrea. It must be especially hard to loose Queenie because whe was so young. We know that you wanted more time with her here before she temporarily had to leave. Also Queenie seems to be a big part of your own life's calling. It's not like you lost a little hobby, I think you're adjusting to a huge definition in your life.
The time she came and went was all too fleeting. I believe that she has a special place in heaven for rescue dogs.
My own instinct is not to force adjustment but to try to keep an open heart to whatever spirituality is coming your way. Whatever comes often includes a surprise and maybe even some reassurance that Queenie is well and good as she goes about her own tasks and thinking of you too. Maybe she'll send someone to you who she wants to be given your special care. - Georgette</FONT f>

[WOTANSMUTTI]

Georgette,

For some reason, while reading your post, I could hear the small slamming sound of the doggie door as it opened and then as if it was being entered!

Isn't that like: When one door closes, another one opens?

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[Roxane]

Andrea, you have a very large circle of friends here. I am sure you know that. We are all standing, hand in hand, in that circle, surrounding you with all the comfort we can provide.
I would like to ease your pain and lessen your grief, yet that is an unrealistic wish on my part. Grieving for Queenie is just another side of the love you had for her.The more we care, the more we hurt.
No one could have done more for her. Many would not have done half as much.
How wonderful that she was able to experience real happiness before she left. That is what you did for Queenie. And isn't that the whole point of rescue? To be able to bring joy into their lives, regardless of how long or how short that life may be?
I will never forget her. Every animal needing to be saved is another Queenie, fighting for the chance to live a good life. Not all will be as lucky as Queenie was; she found you.
Hugs,
Roxane, Greta & Baylea

[LisaH]

Andrea:

Like several others, I just returned from Christmas holidays to see your sad news. I am so sorry. We are all thinking about you.

Lisa and Annie

[TessieMom]

I too just returned to read the news. Everyone else has expressed our thoughts so well, Kibby and Stinker just want to send you big slurpy, dachsie kisses with hugs from Tess and Lucy. Take care, Rena

[Dukey's Mom]

My God, how am I so lucky to have such dear friends. It is now New Years Day, as I write, Dukey is asleep with the honey, Dottie is at the foot of the bed, Maggie as well. Chloe is at my feet, Roger is on the loveseat, Sammy is on the sofa, and Phyllis, the wannabe Dachsie is on the doggie bed.

Meena, my foster that had cancer was adopted Friday night, OMG, thats another story!


Seems like a full house doesn't it? I printed out more pictures tonight of our sweet angel. You know the funny thing is, you are truly the only friends that are as sad as I . I haven't heard from anyone, other than you, about Queenie.

Tom, Karen, Georgette, Sonja, Debbie,Mark, Pamela, Susan, Tanya and all who have been so supportive, I can never express my gratitude to you. I thank you for sharing your stories as well. Forgive me if I have not mentioned all names, you all know I think the world of all of you.

I am still a mess, and as someone here said, I keep thinking, I have to pick her up at the vets, or need to give her her meds. I guess the mind plays tricks on you. I just can't get over that she isn't here anymore.

I miss her, but know she is now playing without coughing, and is healthy. I hope she knows how many people love her.

I will let you all know when she has come home, and we will close this thread, we will have come full circle.

My dear dear friends, may you have a blessed new year, people such as yourselves must have a special place in this world.

I know that Queenie and I feel that you have.

Happy New Year!

Love

Andrea and the Queen

[JadedpixieandBrutus]

I am so sorry for your loss but I know in my heart that Queenie is in another place where she has no pain and is strong and perhaps hiding toys beneath the angel's beds. It is such a hard thing to have to go through the loss of a pet. Brutus and I will be praying for you.

Jadedpixie and Brutus

[loving two dachsie's]

I have been away and missed this news. I am so, so sorry for your loss Andrea. Queeie was such a fighter, god must have needed another special angelhttp://dachsie.org/ubb/smilies/angel.gif

My thoughts and prayers are with you in you time of sorrow and healing.

Queenie could not have had anyone more special to take care of her in her time of need. Andrea, you sound like an angel straight from heaven to mehttp://dachsie.org/ubb/smilies/wink.gif

God Bless,

Linda