Missing my Little Man Today :(

[skipper]

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v639/Skipper4/25619084162_240.jpg Well for some reason today I felt like cleaning out a old closet, and I ran accross a box , it was Skippers box, my daughter had taped it up and wrote rest in peace on it after Skipper Died on New Years Eve 2004. I opened it up and all his blankies and toys and old collers were in there. I just broke down and started to cry my heart out, I smelled the blankets trying to smell him , it was just like it happened yesterday. I sat there and told Skipper how much I missed him and him snuggling under my armpit everynight and going for car rides sitting on my knee. I dont know I just couldnt stop crying, I told him I was sorry for not holding him when they put him down, but that I wanted to remember him that day giving him kiss and a hug and he kiss me in return one last time. I have always felt this guilt for not going in the room with him when they put him down, but I couldnt bare it, it hurt so so much, i cant stop crying right now as I type I need some hugs right now, I probably sound stupid right now, but I know someone must know how I feel. I have kept this bundled inside for the past 2 yrs and feel I need to let it go. I know Skipper forgives me and understood, and was in good hands when he went on to the other side. I miss him so so so so much.:sob: Maybe today by me finding that box was Skippers way of saying its ok.

[TessieMom]

He lives on in your heart and your memories of him will never die. I am sure that he understands and knows how difficult it would have been for you to be there at that moment. His memories of you will be the love you shared.

[Julian&MistyMom]

Aaaaaaw, my thoughts are with you, as you remember your wonderful little friend. I'm so sorry for your pain. We all handle our grief differently. At the time, your heart was breaking, and I know Skipper would understand that.

[Suzanne R]

It's never easy, then or now. We understand. :hug2::hug2::hug2: He is in a place of pure love, and that's a good thing! :hug2:

[dutchman]

They always live on in our hears. We always have to remember how in touch our past little ones were with our feelings and how they never liked to see us sad. The greatest gift we can give/receive once they are gone is to always try and remember them with a smile on our face. Remember our the joy they brought into our lives.

[LUVMYGUNNER]

Skipper knew he was loved and that was the most important thing. He had a great family and a great life.