Dogmother
01-12-2010, 09:17 AM
Yesterday afternoon on Facebook someone posted a Bible passage that in essence said that "our days here on earth are numbered before we even set our foot upon it." For some reason as I read that a feeling of peace swept over me. I still hurt but it is no longer the mind numbing paralyzing feeling I have had the past few days. I go to pick up his ashes at 11:00 today.
I am sure you will remember my posts about Little Dude the downed doxie that I babysat in Oct while his humans had to go out of town to a funeral. I spoke with his dad for a couple hours last night and we shared our grief, pain and lots of tears. That was very helpful also.
Yesterday morning my vet called me when she received the info from the e vet. We talked for awhile and then when she closed the office she came up for awhile and we talked about what happened. She was awesome. Lots of tears on both parts there. Plus she was very impressed with Mira and how well she gets around and what a bossy butt she is now.
Between these three things and Joes post about Pickle yesterday, I have found a semblance of peace, not acceptance yet because his death should not have happened. I do not know if I will ever be able to accept it. I am, however, going to do my level best to see that it never happens to another dog. I will keep you updated on my process in that.
The pain is still with me but I feel I can function a bit better today. I actually slept for for the first time last night since I lost Dex. I miss him like hell and life will never be the same without him. I know there will still be good days and bad days but unlike yesterday, today I know I can get through them.
I want to thank each and every one of you for the love support and many other things that you have done to help me since the onset of this nightmare. I especially want to mention, Betsy, Chrystine, Morgan, Irma, Sarah, and Michelle. What you have done means more to me than you will ever know. Wayne and I both thank you from the bottom of our hearts. Even though they do not come to this site I also need to mention my friends from another doxie site too because they have been on the phone constantly checking up on me and offering love and support.
Now on to some good news. When my friend Dan (Little Dude's dad) heard about Dexters passing on Saturday night, he contacted a family friend that has doxies. He told them about what I did for them with Little Dude, and then what happened to Dexter. The other day Wayne and I both got a cell phone pic of a red pie baby girl. Wayne was smitten instantly. He has been pushing me to get a new furbie to give me a "project" to focus on to help cope with the loss (he knows me well). Yesterday he pushed me really hard to go look at her even though she is 3 hours away. I didn't go yesterday but then Dan sent me a pic of her in my email. When I saw her larger than the teeny cell phone pic I could feel Dex nudging me towards her. The breeders after receiving such high praise of me and then hearing Dexters tragic story offered to drop the price on her by 50%, they said that they couldn't ask for a better home for her. I mentioned this to my friend Mo (from the other doxie site) and she said to give her a day or two because my friends there had been wanting to do something for me and they are thinking of paying the 250 for her for me. The owners also said they would be willing to barter for her as they know from Dan that $$ are tight right now plus they are Montanans and barter is used just as often as cash around here. So I am thinking that we will be having a red pie join our family by the end of the week. My friend Mo said in honor of Dex we could call her D' Extra because she would be D' Extra doxie to help me heal.
Here is her picture.
http://i152.photobucket.com/albums/s184/silverdapplebnt/Piepuppy.jpg
Terri
I am sure you will remember my posts about Little Dude the downed doxie that I babysat in Oct while his humans had to go out of town to a funeral. I spoke with his dad for a couple hours last night and we shared our grief, pain and lots of tears. That was very helpful also.
Yesterday morning my vet called me when she received the info from the e vet. We talked for awhile and then when she closed the office she came up for awhile and we talked about what happened. She was awesome. Lots of tears on both parts there. Plus she was very impressed with Mira and how well she gets around and what a bossy butt she is now.
Between these three things and Joes post about Pickle yesterday, I have found a semblance of peace, not acceptance yet because his death should not have happened. I do not know if I will ever be able to accept it. I am, however, going to do my level best to see that it never happens to another dog. I will keep you updated on my process in that.
The pain is still with me but I feel I can function a bit better today. I actually slept for for the first time last night since I lost Dex. I miss him like hell and life will never be the same without him. I know there will still be good days and bad days but unlike yesterday, today I know I can get through them.
I want to thank each and every one of you for the love support and many other things that you have done to help me since the onset of this nightmare. I especially want to mention, Betsy, Chrystine, Morgan, Irma, Sarah, and Michelle. What you have done means more to me than you will ever know. Wayne and I both thank you from the bottom of our hearts. Even though they do not come to this site I also need to mention my friends from another doxie site too because they have been on the phone constantly checking up on me and offering love and support.
Now on to some good news. When my friend Dan (Little Dude's dad) heard about Dexters passing on Saturday night, he contacted a family friend that has doxies. He told them about what I did for them with Little Dude, and then what happened to Dexter. The other day Wayne and I both got a cell phone pic of a red pie baby girl. Wayne was smitten instantly. He has been pushing me to get a new furbie to give me a "project" to focus on to help cope with the loss (he knows me well). Yesterday he pushed me really hard to go look at her even though she is 3 hours away. I didn't go yesterday but then Dan sent me a pic of her in my email. When I saw her larger than the teeny cell phone pic I could feel Dex nudging me towards her. The breeders after receiving such high praise of me and then hearing Dexters tragic story offered to drop the price on her by 50%, they said that they couldn't ask for a better home for her. I mentioned this to my friend Mo (from the other doxie site) and she said to give her a day or two because my friends there had been wanting to do something for me and they are thinking of paying the 250 for her for me. The owners also said they would be willing to barter for her as they know from Dan that $$ are tight right now plus they are Montanans and barter is used just as often as cash around here. So I am thinking that we will be having a red pie join our family by the end of the week. My friend Mo said in honor of Dex we could call her D' Extra because she would be D' Extra doxie to help me heal.
Here is her picture.
http://i152.photobucket.com/albums/s184/silverdapplebnt/Piepuppy.jpg
Terri